i need to post more icons argh! update on the boy: i'm just being patient. because as they say, time heals everything. we will talk now and then as friends but all i'm waiting for is the next time i go home. i hope i can see him and we can really see what we want to do with each other. i pray about this everyday.
I want this again. He freaking hates me. Won't even let me explain why I did it. And now I'm starting to get mad at myself. Maybe I shouldn't have done this. I want him back right now. I want him to love me and be mine again. Why did I do this? What was I thinking? I AM SO CONFUSED!!!!!!
i hate breaking up. :( i really hope i did the right thing. long-distance was really wearing me out. if we lived in the same city still, things would be completely different. we wanted to marry each other. i still love with him with all my heart and can see myself with him in the future. it's just, as a freshmen in college, i have so much to learn and so much to do. so does he. we're growing and changing but not together. i want to be with him i really do, i just couldn't take it anymore. we live by different schedules. in the end, God knows who i'm going to end up marrying. He knows what i did was right and he knows my intentions. it hurts me that i hurt my boyfriend so bad, because he did nothing to deserve this. now i REALLY need to get my mind off things.